Note V

I will die a martyr
before i die your saint
I will keep my own secrets
and heal my own wounds
I dont need you.

change is soon.

I know so much.
Do not belittle me.
Listen to me long enough and i make sense.
My mistakes are among my many gems.
I hold them dear.

I capture each and ever tear.
Around my neck you must see.
This journey he has made for me.
I fret and fear for change is near.

The universe cradles, swoons, and comforts me.
She knows my heart and has seen my soul.
Change is soon.
Change is soon.

Note IV

The time has come again
The flowers uproot and run
The heat is damp and shallow
The sun spins farther away
The time has come again

Not for long.

im falling off of this planet.

this dirty spoiled piece of meat.

all the flies buzzing around.

spreading rumors with their tiny, useless feet.

im falling into my own world.

im taking the daisy crown he made me.

i will be the queen of my kingdom.

i will find peace and beauty and be free.

im not going to do this anymore.

all the times you let me down.
im not going to listen to the mean words.

there will be no more sadness no more frown.

i hope you can handle it.

on your own without your crutch.
after twenty-three useless years.
you stole two of mine, way too much.

but if you cant.

i wont know.
i wont be here.