Who Am I Today?

I always believed, if you love someone, tell them every time you feel it.

23 Thoughts

1. Prove is the opposite of Passion

2. I think of all of the rooms of my existence and what is inside of them.
I think of all of your rooms I existed in.
Belong is the present tense of Exist
When I am in your rooms I belong.
And then "the time" comes and I exist. 
(And not only. Only should never be used in front of the word exist.)

3. Why do I feel my life is a movie?
My favorite person in my life discovered he is an actor.
Ironically - our "stars aligned."
And before that my favorite person discovered he was a singer.
And before that my favorite person discovered he was a writer.
And before that I had no favorite people so I discovered I was a painter.
And before that I was born.

4. Now, I do what I feel.
Feel is the biggest word in the dictionary.
Ache is the longest word in the dictionary.
Love can be found somewhere in the middle.

5. My dictionary is written backwards.
Perspective come before Observation.

L M N O P

6. Q is for queen. I was taught that as a little girl.

P O N M L K J I 

7. I wish I was here.

I don't want to fight anymore. But I am not sure I can live with out it.

Dad says I have to choose the right ones. He also told me, 

"You only have one fight in high school you can get away with."

And he was wrong.
I got away with many fights. But I will fight smarter now. I will choose the fights that are life-giving.
Oxygen to worn out lungs.

8. There is this song that I have listened to it it sings,

"Is it true? Could this heart be made for you?"

Once a heart is made, it does not grow. You are born with the same size heart you have now. (Scientifically this is not true. Figuratively it is.)
A heart swells. And sometimes a heart breaks from too little. And sometimes a heart bursts from too much.
Like my art, my heart is inside of me. But I believe my (he)art should be created over and over again to share with others.
Fill the world with yellow hearts.

9. How does one survive?
The older we get, the more vices we make excuses for. I think some peoples hearts become farther from their brains, and their bodies - their tools - disintegrate. And once their bodies are gone, their hearts and brains are the only things left. But they don't know how to use them.
I have no accurate image of my body. When I close my eyes, I cannot picture myself. I can picture any other person or thing, but I cannot picture myself.

10. My sister hates the word sexy. I love sexy.
Sexy is alcohol and drugs.
Sexy is being naked during the day.
Sexy is that one song that sways.
Sexy is wearing eyeliner in heaven.
Sexy is dripping paint on canvas.
Sexy is giving head in the morning.
Sexy is on the beach.
Sexy is skin and teeth.
Sexy is deep...
and a cigarette afterwards.

11. Please keep being new. Lets make these nights last til one thousand mornings from now.

12. Why not get high after getting high?
Why not get drunk when feeling sober?
Keep a light on, cause shadows are the only things keeping time.

13. Waiting for something is a way to slow down time. Sometimes sleep is a way of waiting. Even after the sun has circled the world, one can still be waiting for the same thing. I am still waiting.
The Lady in Waiting.

14. Sunset is around 8:30 P.M. now-a-days. It is July and winter is closing in. Soon everything will be dead. Sooner than that - I will be broke.

15. What is the purpose of a one-armed, side-ways, hug?

16. I wonder (what is a word deeper than wonder?) what it will be like to have a child.
child- a literal extension of oneself.
Sometimes I think I should never have a child...that it would be better for everyone if I did not. But then you wrote down #7 on a napkin at a bar called Foundations.
foundation- the underlying basis or principle of something.

17. Never devalue a good occasion.

18. Its kind of a funny thing that for the first time in my life - I don't want to escape.
I used to want to escape for something more, something different, something called love.
I have learned I am love. I am love and I don't want to escape myself. I want to run and grow and live as myself. Plus - love has the most numbers below it's definition in the dictionary.

19. You pulled at my skin, just to know it was there.
You are the only one to do that, besides me.

20. Music makes sense because it has a beat.
Dancing makes sense because it has a beat.
Sex makes sense because it has a beat.
My heart makes sense because it has a beat.

21. I will teach my child that if you believe you are gold, gold you shall be believed.

22. Heaven- a place where body and brain is separated and only soul is present.

23. I spent the night smoking, drinking, and writing. Am I wasted?

 

 

I think, therefore I am.

I think I am delusional sometimes.
I might be suffering from a mental illness.
If romance is an illness, there is no doubt I will die from this disease.

I think I am lonely sometimes.
I might be talking holes through walls.
If conversation is between two, there is fault in finding comfort in ones own head.

I think I am in love sometimes.
I might be kissing souls who disappear.
If a heart dances on the stars, there is paths for worlds to align. 

"I love you Today."

I cannot stop smiling. A true smile.
(I catch glances of myself in her mirror, and it is me? it is Yellow.)

All is right in the world.

New York and your beautifulls.
My soul and her favorite.
You and Your love you too.
Collect moments.
Feel.
Feel.
Feel.
Yell at the top of your lungs... in a row boat when its raining.
Come home and sleep in the sun.
Get naked and dance.
Write.
Remember.
Heal.
Stop biting your tongue.
All is right in the world.
Fight.
Fight.
Fight.
Appreciation is something that grows.
His garden.
Their presence.
I have so many beautiful people in my life.
I love you. (I will always tell you "one more time.")

All is right in the world.  

he said he broke his wrist. summer fest. choe just moved in. vodka and tequila - on the rocks.

Don't question memory.
When you do - you neglect the initial reaction.
And first instincts says something.