Mirror

My skin,
Its not my own. I tug at my clothes,
they dont sit the same.
The mirror,
Ill shatter on the floor- if i look one more time
At that girl.
Still on autopilot.
I curse such a thing. Never should i be this way,
Not a way at all.
Avoiding the pain,
The reality. Not able to stay in my mind,
It spins and spins.
Where will I go? I used to know so much.
I used to know you.
I spin.
And i know it is him,
In the back of my brain. Stealing my shine,
By spitting on my soul. I held the bars,
He pinned on my shadow.
Played the games,
To pass the time. Sweet time,
So lost.
Lessons learned?
I pray.
This hike up this hill,
I will trek to find myself.
Out of this hole,
A damned ugly hole. I'll face my fear,
I swear i will. And keep all my promises.
I'll get back to myself.
And then get back
To You.
And its not for You.
Its for me.
Your a gift to me. I accept,
Once i accept the girl in the mirror.
The one starring back at me.
Broken on the floor.
No more.